How have you all been? I have missed blogging a lot and it's because i'm still trying to find a balance between my work life and the rest of my life.....help anyone???
Today's post is different from my usual alako related posts but remember in my first post where I said that this blog is going to be about everything that makes me alako.
First let me start by saying that year 2015 has been a really good year for many reasons. I was listening to song by K'ore titled 'somore' today and that song just opened my flood gates, I couldn't stop crying. I just kept remembering how blessed I am and how I have been too selfish to even realise and acknowledge God's blessings in my Life. Taking God for granted odikwa very risky and we have to keep being grateful even if we don't get what we want.
So let me share a recent experience I had. I wrote the final level of the Institute of Chartered Accountants of Nigeria (ICAN) examination in May this year. I wrote the 5 papers for the level and I passed only 2. Words cannot really explain how I felt..... it was heart wrenching. Let's just say I felt like a complete failure and a disgrace to the human race (still not sure this totally paints the picture but let's make do with this).
Now let me explain why. I was the child that would get prizes in primary school for academic excellence (Bournvita tried for my school sha), I was also an above average student in secondary school although I never won any prize for academic excellence and when I wrote cambridge examinations I had 5 distinctions out of 6 papers that I wrote.
I got to university and somehow I had the 'I am not here to play' kind of roommates and naturally I was inspired to read and work harder and it definitely paid off because I had a beautiful result to show for it.
Let me just put it out there that I do not consider myself what people might call 'intelligent' or 'brilliant' and I am not exactly a fast learner. But I know myself and thanks to several motivation speeches and books I have been able to work on a my weakness and of course God crowns it up for me.
This experience I had showed me a different side of life, one I had never known and would have even prayed not to know but I am so grateful for this experience. I have learnt A LOT!!.
It's funny how I have heard people say that mistakes are good because you learn from them but I just got my understanding of it. I have now learned to appreciate life more, I now understand that failing doesn't make you a failure. It's interesting that Thomas Edison said that he learnt 999 ways not to create a light bulb and not that he failed 999 times. I have learnt that perspective means a lot and that you have to be able to paint the right picture in your head and follow it through.
This post is majorly to encourage someone who has probably had a similar experience or just feels that he/she has not been grateful. The process of coming to terms with all you have just read did not happen at once I have to tell you. I cried so much my mum was afraid I was going to pass out or something, I suddenly became reserved ( I am almost always laughing about something) and I was always thinking. I was finally able to admit to myself that my worst fear is failing and that failure is not such a 'bad' thing.
Who/what helped me get back on track?
1. God
2 MyParents
3 My friends.
I consider myself a product of grace and therefore do not take anything I am or have for granted. If you have had similar experiences and you want to share please send a mail to ifeoluwago@gmail.com or leave a comment in the comment section. Don't forget to follow me on twitter and instagram @ifealako .
I love you for visiting my blog today and I wish you a thankful rest of the week.
xoxo,
Ifealako.
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